Day 338 Self-forgiveness -and correction on money

 

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I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to hate money because I see it as evil in the world.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think that money has power over me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think that money can direct me and to not see, realize and understand that this a self-created belief that seperates me from myself as the directive principle.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to seperate myself from myself as the directive principle by thinking that money can direct me and thus, has power over me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to blame money when I have just enough to pay the bills.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to blame my parents for not educating me on finances and within the blame I see myself giving up on myself in my financial situation.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to give up on myself in my financial situation and to stay in this negative emotion for decades.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel powerless and a victim of me being not educated enough on finance.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not stand up and take responsibility for my financial illiteracy when I realize I need more education and instead, blame my parents for it.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that I can educate myself on finances so I can direct myself more effectivly within the money system.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to make money as a goal in my life, where money is the startingpoint of everything that I do.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to chase money and to not see, realize and understand that I am separating myself from me as the directive principle in my life.

When and as I am aware of me chasing money and so use money as a startingpoint to direct myself in this life, I stop and I breath. I realize that I am the directive principle of my life and that it’s my responsibility to investigate and understand the current monysystem, and to stand equal with it. I commit myself to take full responsibility for my financial situation and to educate myself about money whenever I see this is needed.

Day 337 Let’s talk about money

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When I found out as a little girl that there was such a thing as poverty and that not everyone had enough money for food, I asked my parents how money was made; “Money is printed on a machine,” my parents answered. I immediately responded with ‘then more money has to be printed so that everyone has money for food’. My parents then explained something about money that didn’t make sense at all to me.  I saw that my solution was the most simple one.

When I grew up I noticed that our family lived in a bigger house than other people. My parents ran their own business that did well but their employees lived in a smaller house. Both my parents and the employees worked very hard and yet there was that inequality … I felt very uncomfortable with it and wanted to know how this inequality could exists.

At 21 I left my parental home and found myself financially illiterate. I now had to do what my parents had always done for me; taking care of myself, also with finances. I studied and made sure that I paid my  bills.  I  ended up in low paid jobs where I worked 40 hours a week and barely managed to pay the bills. The possibilities that I had as a child, because my parents could afford it (having my own horse, go on vacation, go to a private school that I chose myself), no longer existed. I just made enough money to pay the bills and that was it.  I started to hate money and I saw it as evil in the world. I even blamed my parents secretly for not educating me on finances. I  never took the responsibilty for educating myself on how to make more money in the system. I chose to stay a victim.

I worked for a multinational where I soon realized that it was all about money and profit. They didn’t care about their staff, given the low salaries and the constant focus from the management team on money. I realized that I cared more about myself than they did and I wanted to see the care reflected back on me. I wanted to work in a place where the welbeing of people was seen as most important instead of profit. I investigated other work places and companies  but saw that profit was a goal everywhere. At that time, around 2008,  I realized that this was a reflection of my own relationship with money; I had made money as a goal in my life. I was chasing it. It came as a big shock to me to  realize all of  this.   From that moment on I started to investigate my thoughts and beliefs about money and saw that we, as humanity, don’t need money at all to be alive. It was a self-created belief that I was participating in.

I realized something else too; we can ALL have access to life, we don’t need to work so we can buy a life (i am not saying that we don’t have to work at all, because we have created enough problems on this earth that needs to be solved). We have created beliefs about life and money that has manifested itself in a money-system that is a survival of the fittest and not best for all. It’s based on self-interest. When you have money you have access to life -the millionaires and billionaires- and when you don’t have it, you will suffer, you will die directly -people in third world countries- or you have just enough to not die immediately -people without a job, people who work full time for low wages, people on welfare, flexworkers, freelancers etc.

The majority of people don’t have autonomy and freedom to make choices that are best for them en their loved ones. Autonomy and freedom go hand in hand with having money. It’s possible to solve the huge gap between the few that have access to life and the majority that doesn’t. It starts with myself, ourselves by investigating our beliefs, to question them and to correct them into the best outcome for all.

In my next blog I will write self-forgiveness and self-correction about my beliefs about money.

Day 329 Self-created believes about money and Life

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This blog is a continuation from the previous one.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have the thought that I have a right to live here on earth only when I have money.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think that I only have value for myself and others, when I have money.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think that when I don’t have money, I don’t have a right to live.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think that without money I am nothing, I will gain no respect from myself or other people.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that my startingpoint of giving me a reason to live is money and not Life itself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that Life itself doesn’t need money to be able to exist. It is already Here and always has been.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think that I need to work for money/to have access to life.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think that I need to work harder to be able to earn more money and thus more Life.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from life by holding on to the idea that I need money to be able to have access to life.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fully believe the lie – as a thought-  that I need money to survive.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed to think that I need to survive here on earth and to not see, realize and understand that this is a self-created thought to separate me from Life that is Here already.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that Life itself needs to be valued and honoured instead of money.

I do realize that we as humanity somewhere in history, decided to live with money as a way to trade food and products and somewhere down that line, we began to see money as god, something to live for. By doing that, we separate ourselves from Life. We can make a choice to be in allignment with Life by giving everyone a Living Income that is guaranteed from birth till dead. A life that is best for all.

 

Day 328 how can I really help others with no money?

 

For a while now I was puzzling with the question within myself of how to support others when they don’t have the money for the help they need.

In this world when you have money you can buy time, space and support that is specifically needed for you; a coach, a therapist, a counselor etc. If needed, you take more time for yourself and decide to work less or take a month or more off from work to work on the things that you struggle with in life. You can stay autonomous and free to choose what is specifically needed for you.

The majority of people in this world have no money or just enough to be able to provide a minimum income to pay food and bills. When they reach out for help, they immediately loose their autonomy and freedom of choice to find the specific help they need. There is a huge prejudice in this world that people without money don’t know how to help themselves and theirfore others -with money- direct people to listen to them as this outside authority that knows best. This has consequences that are not best for them.

I was looking at this prejudice within myself and could clearly see that I had held the idea of me being someone because I have money. And when I have money, I have the right to be here/to live. If not, I am nothing and I have no right to live on this earth. I have no meaning whatsoever to exist. So somewhere in my life I have created this thought, this idea that money gives me acces to life. In the next blog I will apply self-forgiveness and self-correction on this point.

If we provide enough money for all of humanity, it will help eachother with the specific support everyone needs. It will help people stay autonomous within their choices.

I am trying to find a way to help people who struggle and reach out for support and don’t have money for it. How can I create time and space within the current system for real support?  It begins with me.

This interview was of great support for me within the point of supporting someone. I quote; ‘you need to be the person that hold their hands, no matter how long it takes, but that handholding relationship should be defined within a written agreement’. This is the frame that is really needed; support can only work when there is an agreement with myself first;

  • what do I expect of myself?
  • what is it that I like to achieve?
  • what am I going to accept and allowe and what not?

We create space in the system for people by giving equal money to all. We can create space within ourselves by taking away our prejudices, with no timeframe set because looking at myself; it took me 6 years to walk through some tough points in my life ( I was completely lost within myself) to where I am now. In this 6 years I am (and still) supported by people who walk with me, who never react to my process, and stick with me as long as I stick with myself and my own agreement.

A few other words from the interview that I find very supportive when supporting myself and/or others; start small, be realistic, be honest and start with how much you can handle. Don’t compare yourself with others.

As long as I am committed and work on my own self-agreement and the other is on theirs, the support is real.