I am very fascinated by leadership and managing people. I have read a lot of books about this topic. Why? Because I have worked in companies where I saw people in leadership positions that weren’t fit for the job. I saw the consequences of it all for the teams/the people. It really did hurt me to see people becoming smaller and more insecure because of bad leadership/managing people. What I saw and realized is that a lack of trust, ‘wanting to stay in control’ and not knowing how to direct people, was causing the problem, over and over again. It was a huge frustration for me at that time to realize and not knowing what good leadership was all about so I started to read about it. The point that I didn’t saw in leaders was the point of coaching people; how to support them in reaching their utmost potential. To get the best out of them so it would lead to more quality and sustainable growth of the business.
Reading about it was a great help but more importantly and effective; bringing back the word ‘leadership’ to myself was of most support. Redefining the word; what did it meant to me in the past and how do I want to live it? What is real leadership and how can I create myself as a leader – for myself first? It is a process with falling back into comfort zones, standing up again, pushing myself through resistances, not giving up on myself, learn from my mistakes and expanding myself.
I was recommended to watch this video from Sunette where she shared her process with becoming a leader and managing people. It’s an excellent support for those who want to live their utmost potential.
I will apply self-forgiveness and self-correction on the points I come across in my process of living the word ‘leadership’.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself for being hard on myself for making a mistake.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to make a mistake and react to it by going straight back into my comfort zone of making myself invisible for the rest of the world, stepping into my introverted character.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to go straight back into my comfort zone of being introverted, making myself invisible for the rest of the world.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not stand up for myself when I am falling/making a mistake and to not push myself through the resistances to move on and expand myself.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not allow myself to stumble and fall but instead wanting to be perfect at once without realizing it’s a process.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to strongly resist the position of becoming/being a leader/managing people because of the fear of falling, making mistakes, being not good enough and taking responsibility for myself and as a result of this fear, holding myself back from expanding.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that life gives me situations that will assist and support me to step up for myself, not accepting and allowing less than my utmost potential and instead go into self pity not seeing that these situations are seeds to step up and expand myself to live my utmost potential.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think that ‘I can’t do this’ instead of asking myself the question ‘how can I do this?’.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear being a good example for others in a leadership position.
When and as I see myself wanting to give up on myself, I stop and breath. I will investigate my thoughts and apply self-forgiveness and self-correction on my realizations.
I do realize that it’s a process to become a good (Self)leader, where I will stumble and fall, make mistakes and have to push myself through resistances and out of my comfort zone of being introverted, making myself invisible for the world and instead step up for myself and expand and create myself as the best leader I can be.
I commit myself to keep investigating what skills and talents do I need to develop within myself to assist and support myself in the process of living the word leadership. I commit myself to reach out for people that can and will support me in this process.