I have built a closer relationship since only a few years with my body. In my process I came to realize that my body is supporting me and that it gives me the opportunity to experience myself in this life. Before this realization my body was ‘just there’. I wasn’t connected with it in a caring way, because most of the time I was busy with the world around me, not paying attention to myself.
For decades I had ignored the signals my body gave me when I ate enough but still continued to eat. I ignored the tiredness after I ate an overdose of sugar, day in and day out for years and years. I ignored the rest and support my body needed when it was sick and instead I continued with work, school or daily responsibilities. The effects of smoking I ignored for many years until the signals became literally to painful to ignore. This could happen because I didn’t care about me in the first place, I didn’t love myself at all.
I became more aware of my body when I started my journey inwards. The journey inwards was the beginning of an intimate relationship with myself and simultaneously with my body.
Through gaining more understanding of how thoughts, emotions and feelings were effecting my body, I could see the consequences. I started to investigate them and discovered that I wasn’t supporting myself at all. It was a race to the bottom where I hit the ground really hard. In that moment I made the decision to take another direction in my life and started the journey inwards.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to pay attention to the world outside of me and to not take responsibility for what’s going on in my mind and body.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think that my body is ‘just there’ and to use this thought as a distraction from my self-responsibility.to keep in touch with what is going on inside me.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to ignore the signal that my body is giving me when I ate too much food or I ate an overdose of sugar.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not take enough rest when my body is sick and to not support it with what it needs.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that I crossed the boundaries of my body and instead have the thought that my body will do whatever and whenever I want it to do as if it were a machine.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that what I am doing with my thoughts to my body is also mirroring the relationship I have with myself and with life.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to start addictions to sugar and cigarettes and to justify them with compromising thoughts.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that there is a relationship between my thoughts, emotions, feelings and my body.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see the purpose of my body; that it is supporting me to experiencing myself in this life.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to neglect the needs of my body and to withhold it from the right nutrition and balance in rest it specifically needs.
When and as I am aware of ignoring signals my body gives me, I stop and breath. I do realize that my body communicates with me and supports me in my process.
I commit myself to enhance the relationship with my body, providing it with specific nutrition, movement and to balance movement with the amount of rest that my body needs.
I commit myself to investigate my thoughts, ideas, judgments and patterns I held about my body and to release them through writing Self-Forgiveness statements and correct them with words that support myself as life as who I truly am.